I'll Get There
One Day
Poetry
is those thoughts you can't say,
Those
things you reserve for maudlin times,
When
the booze cruises through your veins,
And
you allow yourself to feel.
I
listened as my grandfather talked.
Clark
Martin, in his cups, on the frontside of a doctor's appointment.
His
tone let me now that this was real.
This
was important.
This
was the end.
Sitting
at a cheap-ass, white kitchen table,
smeared
with ash and food,
not
wiped off because of failing eyes.
Beer
filled the glass,
oval
shapes magnifying the amber liquid,
seeping
into his failing body.
This
was communion,
one
generation saying goodbye to the latest.
This
was my grandfather dying,
unable
to say it,
he
showed it to me.
He
filled me with tales of his youth, imparting all that he could,
out
of love,
out
of fear,
out
of respect.
He
had the same from me.
The
beer disappeared,
but
the words solidified.
Seventy
years of thoughts, all distilled into one evening
for
a kid that had not yet hit twenty-one.
My
girlfriend called, friends called, the night called,
but
I knew I had to stay,
out
of love,
out
of fear,
out
of respect.
In
his eyes, I could see...
I
could see that he wanted to stay,
that
he wanted to say, "Fuck that doctor's appointment. We got shit to
do."
But
he went...
and
he was gone...
in
a month...
I'm
still recovering from that... don't know that I ever will.
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